Time for studying and selfishness

S, who took the bar two years ago, said to me last night that during the bar you have a little more freedom to be selfish than one normally has. I notice the other students at school are all walking a with a little bit more focus and occasionally someone you knew well from classes will pass you without even noticing that you are there: usually on their way to or from Starbucks during our Bar class breaks. As much as studying for the bar is tedious, boring, and draining, there is something kind of nice about having such a singular focus. I feel like I have a purpose when I get up in the morning. Almost every hour of my day is planned out either as study or scheduled relaxation, eating, or exercising time. I don't really spend too much time thinking about anything else except the bar (and a little bit of wedding preparation here and there.) I have to admit, I have not been this focused in all of lawschool, maybe even my whole life, and it carries over into other areas. I have been amazingly good about getting the dishes done and my desk is cleaner than it has been in years. It must be that fitting such vast amounts of information into one's head requires a very systematic process and it just seems easier to plug away and keep everything organized than to let it fall apart. Then again, it is hard to tell what is going on outside my own head.

If I have to compare it, it kind of reminds me of when I first moved to Germany and was in a 6 week intensive German class. We had class in the morning and then we studied in the afternoon. I did a lot less studying then and a lot more drinking, but I was fresh in the country and I was fully absorbed in learning the language during most of the day, especially when drinking. It also kind of reminds me of being on swim team in high school. The first couple of days of the season were always kind of painful, but then every day you get a bit stronger and you can swim harder and stronger. We would always peak a week or two before the biggest swim meet (usually State) and then taper off so that we were relaxed and not exhausted when the big day came. I wonder if that is a good strategy for the bar as well.

We had this really annoying public defender speak in our professional responsibility class, but one story he told I found, well, it was something that stuck with me. He was describing some clients of his, big drug dealers, and they had told him how they prepared for big drug deals (meetings with lots of guys with guns and cash.) He explained what his client had said that he would get wherever he was going a day early then he would work out and relax the whole day before the deal and go to bed early.

I have a long way to go before I need to plan for the few days before the exam, but I might keep that in mind. For now it is the long schlog of class, commute, outline, practice essay, practice, essay, practice essay, then start all over again with a new subject.